Post by Shizuo Heiwajima on Dec 12, 2011 18:59:02 GMT -5
Another day, another demon. Shizuo's life seemed so repetitive some times. But as he caught a large truck that was thrown at him and placed it back onto the ground, he felt something he hadn't in a long time. He felt fear. Not for himself, he had accepted this life that threatened to kill him long ago, someone else, it was someone else he feared for tonight.
"Aqua..."
He whispered the name under his breath as the demon approached him with purpose. He was scared to leave her alone, she had been as such before and he was scared to put her through it again. He was angry at himself for even thinking up the possibility. No, he wasn't going to be that person... He reached out and grabbed a lamppost that lit the street.
"I won't be that man"
He growled as he tightened his grip and dented the lamppost, ripping it from the ground with the metallic clanking of wires being ripped from their roots. He roared as he rushed forwards towards the demon. Prepared completely for the upcoming head to head collision.
"You and Aqua are getting on well..." Kasuka said as he fried some eggs, looking down at the pan he continued to talk to his cousin. "We are..." Shizuo replied, scratching the back of his head "Why?" Kasuka just shrugged "I was just thinking..." he muttered which raised Shizuo's eyebrows "About..?" Kasuka sighed, he didn't want to talk about it, but he was the one who brought up the issue. "Well if you care for her, shouldn't you..." Shizuo growled in frustration "Shouldn't I what..?" he said through gritted teeth, Kasuka didn't seem phased by his raising anger. "Give up this life? If you care for her, is it fair to put your life on the line every night?" Shizuo slammed a hand onto the side "I need the mone-"
"No!"
Shizuo was taken aback by his cousin who had flipped the pan onto the kitchen floor with a clatter. He stood speechless at Kasuka's outburst, but it seems the young actor wasn't done. "You don't need the money! Tom pays you more than enough to support your lifestyle!" Shizuo had his fists clenched in frustration "But he doesn't pay enough to support hers!" Kasuka took a small step forwards "She' a big girl Shizuo! She can take care of herself!"
Shizuo stepped forwards and grabbed Kasuka's collar, lifting him to the ground he slammed him into the nearest wall "No!" he snarled "He left her in this situation and I'm going to pull her out of it!" He dropped Kasuka and turned to leave, his cousin goading him as he left "This isn't about supporting her is it? You just want to be better than him... Her ex... You don't want to be second best..." It took alot of Shizuo's concentration to keep his cool "What are you willing to sacrifice for that cuz?" Kasuka asked, this time he froze. "What are you willing to give up to be seen as better than him for her?" Shizuo looked over his shoulder, his eyes glinting, his halfer blood shining through his gaze...
"My humanity..." he snarled.
A sickening squelch as the lamppost collided with the demons head and cut off it's life abruptly. Shizuo threw the lamppost to the side and sighed at his own outburst at his cousin. Lighting up a cigarette he rubbed his eyes and sat down on the trick he ha caught earlier and watched the demons body turn to ash, and when it was gone, he waited until he smokes his cigarette until it was nought but ash. Flicking the butt of the cigarette to the floor, he stood up and turned, placing his hands on the bonnet of the truck he lost himself in thought once again.
"You okay Shizuo?" Tom asked as he handed him his cut of the debt "Fine." Shizuo replied bluntly, smoking a cigarette. "You sure..? You were different today Shizuo..." Another person complaining about his life. That's how it appeared in Shizuo's eyes at least "Oh really..?" he growled, taking a drag on the cigarette "Yeah, you weren't ashamed of what just happened, you happily broke that guys hand... What's gotten into you?" Shizuo grunted as he threw the cigarette to the ground and crushed it with his heel "I just need the money." Tom narrowed his eyes at his old friend and nodded slowly "Alright... Just remember... Money is the root of all evil Shizuo"
His words were falling on deaf ears. Shizuo was already making his way away from Tom out towards the outskirts, he'd recieved word of a demon crossing and the guy was willing to pay quite well. He found himself thinking back at what others had said. Was Kasuka right? Was Shizuo just trying to prove himself to Aqua by supporting her in every way possible? He obviously cares otherwise he wouldn't be doing it... So does it matter what he's doing if it's for the right reasons..? Problems for a different time. He was approaching the crossing now.
Shizuo was walking back towards the city, having collected the bounty he made his way back to his apartment, questioning everything and anything about himself. Would Kasuka want to talk to him? Would Tom see things from his perspective? Was he doing this for the right reasons?
Was he human anymore?
~
There you go guys! A nice little look into Shizuo's current mental state!
I think it's quite unstable! Even destructive maybe?! D:
Shizuo: Well I'm not one for building stuff, am I?
True.. True...
Kasuka: Jackass...
Shizuo: Grr...
Alcatraz: Woah! Everyone take 5!
But yeah! Just a little something I wrote today
~ Jordan
"Aqua..."
He whispered the name under his breath as the demon approached him with purpose. He was scared to leave her alone, she had been as such before and he was scared to put her through it again. He was angry at himself for even thinking up the possibility. No, he wasn't going to be that person... He reached out and grabbed a lamppost that lit the street.
"I won't be that man"
He growled as he tightened his grip and dented the lamppost, ripping it from the ground with the metallic clanking of wires being ripped from their roots. He roared as he rushed forwards towards the demon. Prepared completely for the upcoming head to head collision.
"You and Aqua are getting on well..." Kasuka said as he fried some eggs, looking down at the pan he continued to talk to his cousin. "We are..." Shizuo replied, scratching the back of his head "Why?" Kasuka just shrugged "I was just thinking..." he muttered which raised Shizuo's eyebrows "About..?" Kasuka sighed, he didn't want to talk about it, but he was the one who brought up the issue. "Well if you care for her, shouldn't you..." Shizuo growled in frustration "Shouldn't I what..?" he said through gritted teeth, Kasuka didn't seem phased by his raising anger. "Give up this life? If you care for her, is it fair to put your life on the line every night?" Shizuo slammed a hand onto the side "I need the mone-"
"No!"
Shizuo was taken aback by his cousin who had flipped the pan onto the kitchen floor with a clatter. He stood speechless at Kasuka's outburst, but it seems the young actor wasn't done. "You don't need the money! Tom pays you more than enough to support your lifestyle!" Shizuo had his fists clenched in frustration "But he doesn't pay enough to support hers!" Kasuka took a small step forwards "She' a big girl Shizuo! She can take care of herself!"
Shizuo stepped forwards and grabbed Kasuka's collar, lifting him to the ground he slammed him into the nearest wall "No!" he snarled "He left her in this situation and I'm going to pull her out of it!" He dropped Kasuka and turned to leave, his cousin goading him as he left "This isn't about supporting her is it? You just want to be better than him... Her ex... You don't want to be second best..." It took alot of Shizuo's concentration to keep his cool "What are you willing to sacrifice for that cuz?" Kasuka asked, this time he froze. "What are you willing to give up to be seen as better than him for her?" Shizuo looked over his shoulder, his eyes glinting, his halfer blood shining through his gaze...
"My humanity..." he snarled.
A sickening squelch as the lamppost collided with the demons head and cut off it's life abruptly. Shizuo threw the lamppost to the side and sighed at his own outburst at his cousin. Lighting up a cigarette he rubbed his eyes and sat down on the trick he ha caught earlier and watched the demons body turn to ash, and when it was gone, he waited until he smokes his cigarette until it was nought but ash. Flicking the butt of the cigarette to the floor, he stood up and turned, placing his hands on the bonnet of the truck he lost himself in thought once again.
"You okay Shizuo?" Tom asked as he handed him his cut of the debt "Fine." Shizuo replied bluntly, smoking a cigarette. "You sure..? You were different today Shizuo..." Another person complaining about his life. That's how it appeared in Shizuo's eyes at least "Oh really..?" he growled, taking a drag on the cigarette "Yeah, you weren't ashamed of what just happened, you happily broke that guys hand... What's gotten into you?" Shizuo grunted as he threw the cigarette to the ground and crushed it with his heel "I just need the money." Tom narrowed his eyes at his old friend and nodded slowly "Alright... Just remember... Money is the root of all evil Shizuo"
His words were falling on deaf ears. Shizuo was already making his way away from Tom out towards the outskirts, he'd recieved word of a demon crossing and the guy was willing to pay quite well. He found himself thinking back at what others had said. Was Kasuka right? Was Shizuo just trying to prove himself to Aqua by supporting her in every way possible? He obviously cares otherwise he wouldn't be doing it... So does it matter what he's doing if it's for the right reasons..? Problems for a different time. He was approaching the crossing now.
Shizuo was walking back towards the city, having collected the bounty he made his way back to his apartment, questioning everything and anything about himself. Would Kasuka want to talk to him? Would Tom see things from his perspective? Was he doing this for the right reasons?
Was he human anymore?
~
There you go guys! A nice little look into Shizuo's current mental state!
I think it's quite unstable! Even destructive maybe?! D:
Shizuo: Well I'm not one for building stuff, am I?
True.. True...
Kasuka: Jackass...
Shizuo: Grr...
Alcatraz: Woah! Everyone take 5!
But yeah! Just a little something I wrote today
~ Jordan
