Post by Namine Joy LeBeau on Jan 31, 2012 6:38:27 GMT -5
Warning: One-sided slash, yaoi, boyXboy love~ If you do not like, then please do NOT read. Thank you... But if you really want to read then you can, just please don't say anything negative about homosexuals/gays/bis/trannies/all the others that fall into GSA, okay?
Summary: Angel has been visiting Neku's apartment, while he's home mind you, more and more. At first he's claiming its to see Nami, hard to go "cold turkey" after all... But now... For some reason... Something just doesn't feel right about saying that...
I can feel my heart thumping slower and its weird, the Miss isn't even in the room, but still her emotions could be effecting me from another room. The more stressed our signal is, the stronger it is. Kind of sick in a way, making her feel all that pent up anger, pain, misery, and sadness whenever she's away from me. That's why I come to visit, to allow her time to be free from my emotions. Sadly that doesn't meant that I feel hers any less, she was never good at masking her feelings.
And I know she can literally feel everything I do, so why does it feel so far fetched that I can't feel everything that she does. I mean, we practically share the same emotions and same physical--
Don't finish that thought, Angel! My mind throws up warning signs of traveling down a dark road, one I've tiptoed down before... Trying to figure out why I had hated Neku before I really even got to know him well. It hadn't even been because I was jealous... It had been because she hated him. Jealousy came later, the predator instincts came later, the need to protect what I had claimed as mine came almost last. Not until the last night and that's odd.
Even at the Masquerade I hadn't really felt jealous, I hadn't really wanted to accomplish much more than analyzing Neku myself. See his reactions, see him play right into my hands. I felt powerful in that moment, almost as powerful as I do when I lose control completely... But I was still mostly human then... I didn't need to hear screams and other terrible things to--
I should stop that train of thought, he's glaring at me, shit... I'm sure he knows what I'm thinking...
Did he just say something?
Can't hear him above the pounding of my heart. I can feel it in every millimeter in my bones, the words submit to your fate. Drop down and beg for forgiveness before he can actually kick you out or worse.
Even if you won't hear it.
Slowly I nod, mostly to myself, but it seems to please him in some way. Okay. I can do this.
As jumbled as I wish my thoughts were the only thing that pops into them is why do I want to submit to him. What is up with my heart pounding like no effing tomorrow.
"What the hell is going as with me?!"
"Like hell I know!"
Crap I said that out loud! Damage control, I need serious damage control! Its bad enough he can hear my thoughts, I don't need him to hear them out loud too...!
"Neku... Do me a favor-"
"Why would I do that?"
My eyes roll as I gain control of my thoughts, masking them effectively, "-Punch me. Hard."
Ten quick heart beats later Neku is shaking his head, "No." His tone firm and I can feel another lecture coming on. God, what's with him and Namine and talking things out like all our problems can be solved with words.
Damn, at leas the last time he beat the living shit outta me first!
I can hear his frustrated growl and I rolls my eyes at him again. Ears laying down on my head, giving away my true feelings of hurt and sorry, tail even trying to not move too much as that might be rude. Not like I seriously care.
I hope.
Of course though this is when Namine comes back in, Neku's headphones sliding off of her ears and she smiles to him as if I'm not even in the room. I can feel what's left of my posture slump, not literally, but I think I just lost, at tops, an inch of my height.
But the thing is its more of the hug she gives him that pisses me off, I want scream at her little world and see if she can even hear me. But that would be rude. So instead I softly clear my throat and their blue eyes turn onto me.
"Well... I guess I should... Should be going," I regain my composure and smile warmly to Namine and nod quickly to Neku bofore hightailing it outside the door. Heart pounding again when their eyes looked at me, when they bore into my soul, burning away all the lies and the protections.
Catching my breath I can hear Namine say, "Has he been acting like that the whole time he's been here?"
Acting like what?!
Neku responds, for no one else can, "Yeah." His voice almost thoughtful, almost worried... Almost like my imagination made it sound that way.
I didn't have to hear what the Miss said next. Somehow I just know her next words will be, "Odd, that's the same way he acted around me when I was little... Maybe all he needed was a real friend~." And I can only guess what comfort Neku would try to give her, what words he'd say to her.
Its just... I don't know...
When she hugged him.
I felt jealous...
And I'm not quite sure...
Of whom any more.
And that's rather...
Rather scary to me...
"Grandmother will be able to help... I'm sure of it... She's dealt with stuff like this all her life, I'm sure of it." And with that I'm heading back into the apartment complex, she does live only one floor below Neku's after all...
---
OMG!!!
You have no idea how re-leaving it was to write that. I hope no one is upset by this lovely little story of mine which I had to write in hopes it won't leak into canon *shivers* Poor Neku! He'd lose it~<3
Ang: What about me?!
Oh and you'd coop pretty well from what I've seen.
Ang: You... You--
Nami:*Whacks him on head with book* bad Angel! You don't even think that about woman!!!
Ang: OW!!!!! *glares at Nami* You have five seconds to run you little brat!!!
Nami: *rolls her eyes and skips off* Come get me naughty kitty~
Ang: *growls and stalks after her*
*giggles*
Well~
I hope someone enjoyed it~
Now...
I...
Need...
To get ready for school
Bye-byes for now~<3
Summary: Angel has been visiting Neku's apartment, while he's home mind you, more and more. At first he's claiming its to see Nami, hard to go "cold turkey" after all... But now... For some reason... Something just doesn't feel right about saying that...
I can feel my heart thumping slower and its weird, the Miss isn't even in the room, but still her emotions could be effecting me from another room. The more stressed our signal is, the stronger it is. Kind of sick in a way, making her feel all that pent up anger, pain, misery, and sadness whenever she's away from me. That's why I come to visit, to allow her time to be free from my emotions. Sadly that doesn't meant that I feel hers any less, she was never good at masking her feelings.
And I know she can literally feel everything I do, so why does it feel so far fetched that I can't feel everything that she does. I mean, we practically share the same emotions and same physical--
Don't finish that thought, Angel! My mind throws up warning signs of traveling down a dark road, one I've tiptoed down before... Trying to figure out why I had hated Neku before I really even got to know him well. It hadn't even been because I was jealous... It had been because she hated him. Jealousy came later, the predator instincts came later, the need to protect what I had claimed as mine came almost last. Not until the last night and that's odd.
Even at the Masquerade I hadn't really felt jealous, I hadn't really wanted to accomplish much more than analyzing Neku myself. See his reactions, see him play right into my hands. I felt powerful in that moment, almost as powerful as I do when I lose control completely... But I was still mostly human then... I didn't need to hear screams and other terrible things to--
I should stop that train of thought, he's glaring at me, shit... I'm sure he knows what I'm thinking...
Did he just say something?
Can't hear him above the pounding of my heart. I can feel it in every millimeter in my bones, the words submit to your fate. Drop down and beg for forgiveness before he can actually kick you out or worse.
Even if you won't hear it.
Slowly I nod, mostly to myself, but it seems to please him in some way. Okay. I can do this.
As jumbled as I wish my thoughts were the only thing that pops into them is why do I want to submit to him. What is up with my heart pounding like no effing tomorrow.
"What the hell is going as with me?!"
"Like hell I know!"
Crap I said that out loud! Damage control, I need serious damage control! Its bad enough he can hear my thoughts, I don't need him to hear them out loud too...!
"Neku... Do me a favor-"
"Why would I do that?"
My eyes roll as I gain control of my thoughts, masking them effectively, "-Punch me. Hard."
Ten quick heart beats later Neku is shaking his head, "No." His tone firm and I can feel another lecture coming on. God, what's with him and Namine and talking things out like all our problems can be solved with words.
Damn, at leas the last time he beat the living shit outta me first!
I can hear his frustrated growl and I rolls my eyes at him again. Ears laying down on my head, giving away my true feelings of hurt and sorry, tail even trying to not move too much as that might be rude. Not like I seriously care.
I hope.
Of course though this is when Namine comes back in, Neku's headphones sliding off of her ears and she smiles to him as if I'm not even in the room. I can feel what's left of my posture slump, not literally, but I think I just lost, at tops, an inch of my height.
But the thing is its more of the hug she gives him that pisses me off, I want scream at her little world and see if she can even hear me. But that would be rude. So instead I softly clear my throat and their blue eyes turn onto me.
"Well... I guess I should... Should be going," I regain my composure and smile warmly to Namine and nod quickly to Neku bofore hightailing it outside the door. Heart pounding again when their eyes looked at me, when they bore into my soul, burning away all the lies and the protections.
Catching my breath I can hear Namine say, "Has he been acting like that the whole time he's been here?"
Acting like what?!
Neku responds, for no one else can, "Yeah." His voice almost thoughtful, almost worried... Almost like my imagination made it sound that way.
I didn't have to hear what the Miss said next. Somehow I just know her next words will be, "Odd, that's the same way he acted around me when I was little... Maybe all he needed was a real friend~." And I can only guess what comfort Neku would try to give her, what words he'd say to her.
Its just... I don't know...
When she hugged him.
I felt jealous...
And I'm not quite sure...
Of whom any more.
And that's rather...
Rather scary to me...
"Grandmother will be able to help... I'm sure of it... She's dealt with stuff like this all her life, I'm sure of it." And with that I'm heading back into the apartment complex, she does live only one floor below Neku's after all...
---
OMG!!!
You have no idea how re-leaving it was to write that. I hope no one is upset by this lovely little story of mine which I had to write in hopes it won't leak into canon *shivers* Poor Neku! He'd lose it~<3
Ang: What about me?!
Oh and you'd coop pretty well from what I've seen.
Ang: You... You--
Nami:*Whacks him on head with book* bad Angel! You don't even think that about woman!!!
Ang: OW!!!!! *glares at Nami* You have five seconds to run you little brat!!!
Nami: *rolls her eyes and skips off* Come get me naughty kitty~
Ang: *growls and stalks after her*
*giggles*
Well~
I hope someone enjoyed it~
Now...
I...
Need...
To get ready for school
Bye-byes for now~<3
