Post by Neku Sakuraba on Mar 16, 2012 8:13:46 GMT -5
A/N: Warning: This fic is rather dark, and could be considered spoiler-y for something set to happen later on. Angsty, too. And there's some format screwing.
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I crouched in my room, curled in a ball, fighting back the anger and rage in me as my fingernails dug deep into the wall of my room. I was glad Namine was out; whatever bond we had was guaranteed to transmit all of this to her, and she’d be scared of me, just like she was scared of him.
I’m NOTHING LIKE HIM! my mind raged, and I had to clamp down on it to keep everyone in the area from knowing it. The anger just wouldn’t stop, wouldn’t go away. I felt like screaming, yelling, desires that I didn’t even know I could imagine and that I didn’t want to think about where they came from surfaced in my mind. I hunched over a little more; the anger was almost pain to me, and my head felt like it was splitting open.
SHE WAS MINE.
And I’d made sure of that once and for all, hadn’t I?
Not once and for all. HE was still ALIVE. But I’d taught him his lesson. Taught him who was boss, who was stronger, who had the strength and the power to keep her safe. And to keep her by my side.
And no two-bit quarterblood was going to take MY girl!
I winced and almost tried to push myself through the floor. These thoughts weren’t mine! I screwed my eyes shut even tighter and tried desperately to push back the raging madness, this terrible anger, and I felt something almost start to tear inside me.
For the first time in my life, I was afraid of myself. I’d always been a little scared, deep down, of what I could do – four years and leader of the Network, and the strength of my abilities always gave me a little bit of a chill when I stopped to think about it. But then came the mind-reading, and with Namine and I experimenting with my memories, it felt like something was waking up. And it scared the shit out of me.
But being scared… just made me more and more angry.
And with that anger, came the memories.
-Neku, Run!
Heheh… nowhere to hide.
Please! He’s just a child!
screaming
Oh, what have we here?
You have to… to save him!
And whatever do you have to give me in return?
I’ll do anything, anything!
Anything?
That last part, I screamed out loud as the pain felt like it split my head in two, collapsed to the ground, hands gripping my head, clasped around my ears as if I could stop hearing the words, stop feeling the pain, a pain the felt like it ran through my entire body and burned it almost away.
Then the pain receded, and with it, the anger, leaving me collapsed in exhaustion on the floor of my room, amidst the destruction I’d caused, though I’d kept it to this room. Namine was on the couch for now until we could set a more permanent spot up for her… I was glad. She’d be scared. I didn’t want… to see Nami scared.
Scared of me.
Just like… him.
But this time, that didn’t make me angry. Just sad… and scared… and tired. With tears streaming down my face, consciousness left me…
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A/N: *cough* So, you can just.... um, ignore this. If you want to. What's going on here? You'll find out sooner or later. Is this a spoiler? Depends on your point of view. Miri out!
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I crouched in my room, curled in a ball, fighting back the anger and rage in me as my fingernails dug deep into the wall of my room. I was glad Namine was out; whatever bond we had was guaranteed to transmit all of this to her, and she’d be scared of me, just like she was scared of him.
I’m NOTHING LIKE HIM! my mind raged, and I had to clamp down on it to keep everyone in the area from knowing it. The anger just wouldn’t stop, wouldn’t go away. I felt like screaming, yelling, desires that I didn’t even know I could imagine and that I didn’t want to think about where they came from surfaced in my mind. I hunched over a little more; the anger was almost pain to me, and my head felt like it was splitting open.
SHE WAS MINE.
And I’d made sure of that once and for all, hadn’t I?
Not once and for all. HE was still ALIVE. But I’d taught him his lesson. Taught him who was boss, who was stronger, who had the strength and the power to keep her safe. And to keep her by my side.
And no two-bit quarterblood was going to take MY girl!
I winced and almost tried to push myself through the floor. These thoughts weren’t mine! I screwed my eyes shut even tighter and tried desperately to push back the raging madness, this terrible anger, and I felt something almost start to tear inside me.
For the first time in my life, I was afraid of myself. I’d always been a little scared, deep down, of what I could do – four years and leader of the Network, and the strength of my abilities always gave me a little bit of a chill when I stopped to think about it. But then came the mind-reading, and with Namine and I experimenting with my memories, it felt like something was waking up. And it scared the shit out of me.
But being scared… just made me more and more angry.
And with that anger, came the memories.
-Neku, Run!
Heheh… nowhere to hide.
Please! He’s just a child!
BANG! BANG! BANG!
Mommyyyy!
BANG! BANG!
screaming
Oh, what have we here?
You have to… to save him!
And whatever do you have to give me in return?
Mommy, why am I different?
I’ll do anything, anything!
I’m scared…
Anything?
Make it go away! Make it stop!
Someone… anyone!
Someone… anyone!
“MAKE IT STOPPP!”
That last part, I screamed out loud as the pain felt like it split my head in two, collapsed to the ground, hands gripping my head, clasped around my ears as if I could stop hearing the words, stop feeling the pain, a pain the felt like it ran through my entire body and burned it almost away.
Then the pain receded, and with it, the anger, leaving me collapsed in exhaustion on the floor of my room, amidst the destruction I’d caused, though I’d kept it to this room. Namine was on the couch for now until we could set a more permanent spot up for her… I was glad. She’d be scared. I didn’t want… to see Nami scared.
Scared of me.
Just like… him.
But this time, that didn’t make me angry. Just sad… and scared… and tired. With tears streaming down my face, consciousness left me…
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A/N: *cough* So, you can just.... um, ignore this. If you want to. What's going on here? You'll find out sooner or later. Is this a spoiler? Depends on your point of view. Miri out!
