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Post by Namine Joy LeBeau on Nov 10, 2012 22:13:16 GMT -5
I frown and lean away from him. Then I glare, "Neku Sakuraba." My eyes narrow and I shove him away. "I am not scared of you! I'm scared of him and how alike you and him are!"
Him.
He...
The man from my dreams.
The two contradictions. The ANGEL and the DEMON.
"I'm... I'm afraid of what you can do!"
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Post by Neku Sakuraba on Nov 10, 2012 22:21:47 GMT -5
I nodded.
"I know. You're afraid that I could break your heart, or your body. And you're afraid that you are what would cause me to do that. BUt not even me, this me, would do that to you, because you're more precious to me than my own life." I shook my head. "But... whether or not you're afraid of me... I have to put a stop to this. We can't live like this, separate but in the same mind, anymore. I need to find the one person who can put us back together and unfortunately, my memory won't tell me who he is. But if I let the other part back out... I don't know that they'd be able to handle what has to happen. I'm hiding my memories away from myself. Because I can't handle what might be in them."
I shook my head again, looked away from her.
"....I feel too small," I mumbled under my breath. "I need to be me again... and the rest of me is starting to realize that."
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Post by Namine Joy LeBeau on Nov 10, 2012 23:11:25 GMT -5
I blink and then frown, "Could this person be... Izaya? That jack ass information broker?"
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Post by Neku Sakuraba on Nov 10, 2012 23:20:44 GMT -5
Izaya....
Izaya, Izaya....!
.....no! Izaya, he, he... he did this to me!
"I-Izaya...!"
My voice is lighter than it was. My eyes immediately flash back to blue. I can feel my efforts to protect me, but I can't keep ignoring what's going on to be safe.
I can feel the fear, but... but I have to be strong. Even I can be strong sometimes!
"Y-yeah," I say, nodding, then looking away. "It's... it's Izaya I have to see..."
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Post by Namine Joy LeBeau on Nov 10, 2012 23:25:11 GMT -5
My arms go around Neku and I pull him close, nuzzling my face into his shoulder, "Yeah... Yeah. He is... But, Neku? Don't leave me behind? Take me with you?" I want to be there, I want to keep him safe... Even though I already know I can't...
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Post by Neku Sakuraba on Nov 10, 2012 23:27:44 GMT -5
I smile, holding her close to me.
THis is how people were meant to live.
"Of course I'll take you with me," I tell her. "I... I don't want to be alone, when we go. You're my stability. You're the one who helps me not be afraid, even when I want to."
Every other piece of me is screaming at me to keep her away from Izaya, but... I can't bring myself to go alone. And no one but her would understand.
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Post by Namine Joy LeBeau on Nov 10, 2012 23:37:19 GMT -5
I beam and now its my turn to kiss him, Thank you, thank you, thank you! And when I pull away from him I'm beaming, "I'm so glad you changed your mind."
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Post by Neku Sakuraba on Nov 10, 2012 23:44:24 GMT -5
I look conflicted, down to the side.
"I want to keep you safe," I say, frowning, "but I also want you with me. And the way I am right now, I don't know that I can make up my mind. But. As long as I'm here... I want you with me. That's why I asked you what I did." I give her a smile, an honest smile. "If we go together, we can do anything, right?"
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Post by Namine Joy LeBeau on Nov 10, 2012 23:49:44 GMT -5
I beam and nod, holding him close, "Yes, absolutely anything..." Did he want to leave now... Or... Snuggle for a bit?
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Post by Neku Sakuraba on Nov 10, 2012 23:56:17 GMT -5
"Well, what do you want to do, Nami?"
I smile at her, still holding onto her hand.
"I can last a little while longer. If you need to prepare before we go, or, or stay with me for a little while, there's nothing stopping us."
I enjoy speaking with her in my mind. It feels right. I felt too closed off before this, now I feel free.
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Post by Namine Joy LeBeau on Nov 11, 2012 0:00:00 GMT -5
My fingers squeeze his hand and shake my head, "No... I think it may be best to do this now."
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Post by Neku Sakuraba on Nov 11, 2012 0:03:56 GMT -5
I squeeze back, then nod.
"Then... then let's go."
I'm still scared. But when she's here, I'm not so scared anymore. So I smile, hesitantly.
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Post by Namine Joy LeBeau on Nov 11, 2012 0:07:52 GMT -5
I stand, "Lets go, cheri." And I wait for him to stand.
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Post by Neku Sakuraba on Nov 11, 2012 0:21:50 GMT -5
I stand, smiling at her.
"COme on, Namine. Let's go talk to an info broker."
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Post by Namine Joy LeBeau on Nov 11, 2012 0:29:00 GMT -5
So I lead him out, keeping my head high as I do. No need to for us to have a weak appearance when we get there... Besides... I'll probably need to punch Izaya anywhom...
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