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Post by Aqua on Mar 2, 2013 21:14:16 GMT -5
Lifting a hand in front of her mouth, Aqua giggles for a few moments, "Oh. The way you hold your fork, the determined expression while you cut your food... All the expressions you have while chewing as if deciding if the food is worth eating... Pretty much... Everything you do."
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Post by Shizuo Heiwajima on Mar 2, 2013 21:24:18 GMT -5
"Ahh... Well... That there is, well, that's survivors instinct!" He chuckled to himself, chewing down another piece of sausage. "When you've faced death in the face as many times as I have, clenched a fist, and punched it square between the eyes... You learn to savor all the little things, I guess. How nice a sausage tastes... The feel of a knife passing through an omelette..." He looked up at Aqua, his head cocked to the side with an almost curious look, if anything. "What it feels like to have someone important in your life..."
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Post by Aqua on Mar 2, 2013 21:26:39 GMT -5
She smiles.
"I love you too, Shizuo."
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Post by Shizuo Heiwajima on Mar 2, 2013 21:28:46 GMT -5
"See how I danced around saying that? Man, I'm good at this." He smirked back as he shoveled a collection of omelette and sausage into his mouth. Chewing slowly, and thoughtfully, the Waiter came back finally with Aqua's shake, setting it down in front of her before wandering off again. Shizuo, who was steadily mopping up the rest of his meal, took a moment to sit back slightly, spreading one arm across the back of the booth.
"So! Do you know what the special occasion is for me?"
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Post by Aqua on Mar 2, 2013 21:39:13 GMT -5
Aqua giggles a bit more flirtatiously before thanking the waiter and sipping at her shake. Her head shakes, "Its not your birthday, is it?"
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Post by Shizuo Heiwajima on Mar 2, 2013 21:43:43 GMT -5
"Aha, no! That's been and gone!" He gave her a wink before his smile became slightly more solemn. It was still there, but the spark had gone slightly. He licked his lips nervously before scratching the back of his head.
"It'd have been my parents anniversary today. Pair of old geezers that they are, but yeah, Tom gave me the day to myself in order to celebrate, and my 'Cuz has agreed to let me keep to myself as well!" He paused for a moment, realizing it probably sounded like he wanted to be alone. "But I'm glad you're here! Don't get me wrong, it's nice... Y'know? It makes me wonder..."
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Post by Aqua on Mar 2, 2013 21:48:07 GMT -5
"Wonder if this was what it was like for them?" She asks before thinking. Blushing her gaze flits away a moment before looking back. "Sorry... I didn't mean to... You wonder...?"
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Post by Shizuo Heiwajima on Mar 2, 2013 21:54:28 GMT -5
"No, you're right..." He scratched the back of his head again, suddenly feeling sufficiently more awkward than he had done before. "I mean, my parents loved each other, they loved me, I loved them... I love you... I don't know, I just can't help but wonder sometimes if this is what they had..."
"Shizu-chan! Come on!"
"Yeah, come on kiddo! We're heading out to the park!"
"Things were so much more peaceful then. I didn't even really know all that much about demons, just that my pa' was one, and that my mom didn't care." He chuckled. "I'd consider myself closer to my dad's side than my mom's" His eyes flickered up to meet Aqua's for a brief moment.
"I'd like to think that you don't care, either..."
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Post by Aqua on Mar 2, 2013 21:57:05 GMT -5
Aqua nods, "Of course I don't... But I am glad your parents were in love and both very loving..." She does frown a moment before saying in a small voice. "Would it be too much to ask what happened to them?"
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Post by Shizuo Heiwajima on Mar 2, 2013 22:10:32 GMT -5
"No... I guess you should know..." Shizuo looked around the booth and the rest of Veil, checking that nobody was just openly eavesdropping.
"My dad fell ill when I was just a kid... Serious stuff... Demon stuff. Whilst he was ill, he couldn't control the flow of power that he letting out whatsoever, so our house just became a massive hot-pot of demonic energy, the place was packed with the stuff. My mom instantly knew something was up, and it seems that because I'm a Halfer, I was immune. I served my pa' his meals, and talked to him whilst he ate... But then my mom got sick. We took her to hospital." He was staring at the middle of the table in between them, his eyes glazed over, almost emotionless.
"The Doctors had never seen it before... Some new, aggressive strain of cancer that was spreading faster than they could keep up with it. They didn't giver her long, but she fought it, and she held on. I remained by her side throughout, until finally one night... She was suddenly gone..."
"Shizu-chan! Come on!"
"Yeah, come on kiddo! We're heading out to the park!"
"Alright, coming mom!" A young, brown-haired Shizuo skidded around the corner, grinning broadly with a massive coat, scarf, gloves and boots on. His massive smile revealed that one of his front teeth was missing. His dad smiled, ruffling his hair with a gloved hair as his mom opened the door, revealing the snowy city beyond.
"I snapped." Shizuo shifted his gaze now, trying his best to not look at Aqua. "It was snowing, actually... I walked home, the snow crunching underfoot. I kicked the house door off of its hinges, despite only being young, five, six maybe. Burst into my dad's room..."
"Shi-Shizu-chan..."
"NO! YOU CAN'T CALL ME THAT!"
"Alright... Alright... Shizuo... She's..?"
"She's dead!"
"I see... I understand. I love you."
"I walked in, almost calmly... Took his spare pillow from next to him and pressed it against his face... Held it down as tight as I could, not that I needed to. He didn't move whatsoever, didn't budge an inch. His chest just kept rising and falling steadily, before it started to slow down... And then it just... stopped. And that was that. I-I realized what I'd done... I panicked. I didn't want to be alone..."
"Oh god... I don't want to be alone..."
"I laid down next to him, grabbed him by the arms and pulled them around me... Kept my back facing him, I couldn't dare look at his face. Cried myself to sleep." He moved his tongue around his mouth, coughing lightly. "But yeah. That's what happened... My dad accidentally killed my Mom and then I killed him..."
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Post by Aqua on Mar 2, 2013 22:18:38 GMT -5
Aqua places a hand on Shizuo's shoulder, "I'm sorry." That's all she can say on the matter. Something in her holding back her instinct to just embrace him and ever let go, to whisper words of love to him... something told her not to... But she's certain of one thing... its not fear that's holding her back.
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Post by Shizuo Heiwajima on Mar 2, 2013 22:26:49 GMT -5
"I still can't decide if what I did was right." His brow furrowed slightly, he was genuinely impressed with his own ability to hold his own without breaking down, as well as Aqua' own ability to stay sat next to him despite everything that he'd just told her. He finally looked up at the woman he loved, with a confused expression on his face, the faint traces of the young boy he'd once been staring out, reaching out.
"I genuinely can't decide if I did the right thing... I killed my own father and can't call it wrong..."
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Post by Aqua on Mar 2, 2013 22:29:52 GMT -5
She sighs before saying simply, "Love is the strongest emotion, it often times gets mixed and muddled with hate... I feel you did it for both of them... In vengeance of your mother and end your father's own suffering..." She pauses before saying in an even tone. "I believe you saved him rather than killing him... It wasn't murder, it was freedom."
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Post by Shizuo Heiwajima on Mar 2, 2013 22:34:11 GMT -5
"Yeah... Well, he's still dead. They're both dead."
Shizuo paused for a moment, his gaze instantly falling to the floor momentarily, his entire body language flinching away from Aqua. He suddenly became shy, almost trying to hide away from her for a moment as his hands fell into his lap, his gaze simply staring at his shoes.
"I-I'm sorry... I shouldn't have snapped like that..." He sniffed once, for nothing other than to break the awkward silence. "It's just weird is all, and confusing." He clenched his left fist tighter under the table, his other hand wrapping around it as his brow furrowed even deeper into a look of dedicated thought.
"It scares me sometimes... What I can do..."
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Post by Aqua on Mar 3, 2013 13:37:07 GMT -5
For a moment Aqua frowns before slipping a hand under the table to lay it on top of Shizuo's own pair, "We all scare ourselves at one point or another, some more than others. Its how we face ourselves and our fears that matter..."
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