the ventings of someone whom knows she's screwed..

[Namine Joy LeBeau]

Yesterday...

I went to my dream college...

Ai... One of Mihcigan's branches.

Its perfect. How its set up. The classes I need/want to take... My ambition can be realized...

One problem...

I.

Can't.

Fucking.

Afford.

It!!!!

Effing, god fricken mother... DAMMIT!

Anyways...

For the next like week... I'll be trying to get my shit together so I can totally get what I need... Grr!!! That's why I wanted to work while going to school mom!!!!!

But, what ever.

My parents are liars.

So like they totally said they'd pay my way through college (I was stupid to believe they'd ever mean that!) and stuff- they promise me a lot of things that are impossible btw-. So... AFTER APPLYING and everything, my mom comes in and is like, "If you can't pay for it you can't go."

WTF? WTFH???

*growl again* So like now... I'm going to have to find tons of ways to pay for my dream... Any suggestions anyone?

Because if my rents would of told me this last year I wouldn't be worrying so much b/c I would of had most of the applying and whatever shit done already. Also I most likely would of landed myself at least SOMETHING to help by now. =-=

So ANYTHING would be helpful right now.

I hate money.

[Lea]

*huggle*

Oh, Nami, that's soooo awful!

I don't know what I'd do in that situation - start applying for jobs and just hope for the best, I guess. Good luck, whatever happens! You're in my thoughts and prayers and dreams.

[Namine Joy LeBeau]

*hugs back*

Thank you.

[Sora Shimomura]

Yeah start applying for jobs, I think it's a bit...cruel that there isn't going to be SOME support to get into the school. But I guess I shouldn't complain, I got lucky, my Community college the checks they're giving us is enough money so we don't tap into having to borrow money.

[Namine Joy LeBeau]

*sighs* Well... I geuss the weirdest part is mom is all like ((Last year of course)): Me and your Dad don't want you to worry about school. We'll pay for it ^___^

And all of a sudden I'm getting: me and your dad talked about it. If you can't pay for it, then its a no go *gives pissed look*

But I have an odd feeling my mom may come home and be like this: If you manage to pay for half to most of it, preferably most, then you can go. Cool? ^___^

*sighs*

But I'm on it now, so its cool. I'll get scholarships and loans if I must... B/c I have no way of doing a job right now... I have no way of getting to/from said job at least so yeah... And not to mention I have a week night bed time of eight o'clock and usually (as of late) I spend my weekends doing homework... So I wouldn't be able to get a job right now anyways.

Whatever.

Sorry for ranting again.

I'm done.

[Aya Brea]

Go ahead and rant, we aren't going to be like "Gosh, stfu". It's alright, I guarantee I'll be on here ranting at some point!

[Namine Joy LeBeau]

Thanks Aya... But I really should stop. Complaining will get me no where anytime soon. So instead I'm doing a web search... One I should of done a year ago.