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Post by Namine Joy LeBeau on Sept 11, 2012 23:20:29 GMT -5
I let out a sigh, If you need to cry... Don't hold back. And I hold him a bit tighter, trying to transfer my feelings through the touch.
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Post by Neku Sakuraba on Sept 12, 2012 0:11:55 GMT -5
Her feelings ran through me, sadness, comfort, loss, confusion... every single one finding an echo in my soul.
Don't hold back, so I didn't. I couldn't. Not anymore, not after that. The tears ran from my eyes.
WHAT THE HELL AM I? I cried out in my mind, to the sky, to the world, to my own memories, to Namine. WHY CAN'T I REMEMBER WHO I AM?!
Just a name. That's all I woke up with, just my name and that I had to run far away. Fear. That's it. That was ALL!
ALL I HAVE! my mind screamed, finding an echo. My heart ached. My soul ached. Hell, even my body was beginning to ache, and the pain in my head started again, trying to split it open as my whole body fought whatever force was keeping me from remembering who I was supposed to be.
I HATE IT. I'M SUPPOSED TO KNOW WHO I AM!
I couldn't stop that mental rage as I held her close, clutching her forbalance. My body, physically, was serene, my sobs nearly silent, but my mind raged and screamed.
I'M SUPPOSED TO KNOW! I DON'T REMEMBER ANYMORE! ANd... and.... and it....
it hurts...
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Post by Namine Joy LeBeau on Sept 12, 2012 0:18:42 GMT -5
I hold Neku and let his anger, his hurt roll over me. There is little I can do... Izaya holds the key, that much I know...
I'm sorry, Neku.
Nothing more can I say, nothing more can I think to him...
I can't fix him.
I can ba...
Sorry.
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Post by Neku Sakuraba on Sept 12, 2012 0:26:18 GMT -5
No.... no, it's not you.... I felt the need to comfort her. To keep her here. With me. It's not your fault... you didn't make me this way...
But what... 'way'.... did I mean?
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Post by Namine Joy LeBeau on Sept 12, 2012 0:28:37 GMT -5
I hum softly and I just hold him, I know. Guess all he needs is me being here, I can give that.
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Post by Neku Sakuraba on Sept 12, 2012 0:32:47 GMT -5
I let her hum to me, savage beast soothed by music - heh. Guess some cliches are true. I still hurt, all over, body and soul, but it soothed the pain at least a little. She was here for me; she wasn't ever going away. I could deal with that. I could live with that.
Don't ever leave, I asked her quietly. Please.... don't ever leave...
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Post by Namine Joy LeBeau on Sept 12, 2012 0:35:52 GMT -5
I won't ever leave, I promise, Something inside me snaps when I say that... As if... I've spoken these words before... But not with Neku, not in a place like Urbadelphia... Twisting deep inside me I can feel...
Guilt.
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Post by Neku Sakuraba on Sept 12, 2012 0:57:53 GMT -5
I held her tighter, feeling that guilt surge through me.
Even if you don't remember, I 'said', in the softest mental voice I could manage, the scars can still remain.
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Post by Namine Joy LeBeau on Sept 12, 2012 1:01:56 GMT -5
Scars of things that never existed, this is bull, I sigh mentally while I just try to give him a comforting smile. I do wonder what I'm missing though... Anyways, back to you.
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Post by Neku Sakuraba on Sept 12, 2012 1:12:38 GMT -5
Only memories of a serious jackass, I told her, then released some of my grip.
"So what else do you want to know about me?" I asked out loud, quietly.
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Post by Namine Joy LeBeau on Sept 12, 2012 1:17:02 GMT -5
What do I...
A lot of things, most of them I shouldn't ask.
But what to ask...
I could--
No.
That would be rude!
I, uh... Er... Hmm...
"Lets start with something simple, something I probably already know," I shrug. "Before me, ever kissed anyone?"
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Post by Neku Sakuraba on Sept 12, 2012 1:19:56 GMT -5
I looked away, blushing slightly.
"Never even had a girlfriend before you," I said sheepishly. "Lea used to call me 'oblivious'."
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Post by Namine Joy LeBeau on Sept 12, 2012 1:29:51 GMT -5
I beam, "I feel very lucky and prideful now." I nuzzle my face into the side of his neck, humming a happy tune.
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Post by Neku Sakuraba on Sept 12, 2012 1:32:46 GMT -5
I smiled back. "I guess you are. Maybe I'm the lucky one."
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Post by Namine Joy LeBeau on Sept 12, 2012 1:38:05 GMT -5
My eyes roll, "Flattery gets you no where dear~." And then I giggle softly, its a bit darker than usual, but still light. "Now... Lets see... Oh, I know... Ever played concentration?"
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