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Post by Neku Sakuraba on Nov 12, 2012 2:39:28 GMT -5
But... she was in turmoil too... I could hear it even if I couldn't feel it.
"It'll... it'll be okay, Namine," I said, whispering, needing to pull myself together to protect her from my pain. "I'll be alright... you said so. I just... everything hit me all at once.... don't be afraid. Don't be upset. Namine... please... please don't..."
Please don't leave me alone, too.
Please, don't let me lose you too!
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Post by Namine Joy LeBeau on Nov 12, 2012 2:44:34 GMT -5
I smile at him, my eyes reflecting a sadness, "I won't ever leave you... I promise."
You promised! Hah! How stupid!
I love him.
You loved him as well.
"I love you too, I won't ever leave you."
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Post by Neku Sakuraba on Nov 12, 2012 2:54:45 GMT -5
I could almost... hear someone else's voice, but... Namine was the only one here.
"I know," I said quietly, looking into her eyes. "You stood by me. You're still here. That's the biggest proof I can get that you'll never leave me." My face and voice were serious. "Don't doubt yourself, Namine. We love each other, I can see that. We'll make it... together." My hands had gripped her shoulders, but my wings were still wrapped around her.
For a moment, I thought, then....
"Namine, let's get away for a while. Just go. Pack up, leave, go somewhere else. Somewhere still inside the city, but... someplace where we can forget about all of our problems. Where I can learn how to live again and where you don't have to be afraid of the past. Someplace... someplace we can live in the prsent and not think about the future until we have to."
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Post by Namine Joy LeBeau on Nov 12, 2012 2:59:42 GMT -5
"Are you.." I blink and then smile while flushing. "Are you asking me to run away with you?"
Hey Nam?
Yeah?
Lets run away, you know, get cha away from the bitch.
You sure that's a good thing?
You trust me don't you?
... Forever and always...
He smirks at me, Good.
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Post by Neku Sakuraba on Nov 12, 2012 3:04:25 GMT -5
I shook my head.
"Not forever. Just a little while."
I paused, looked away.
"You don't... you don't have to if you don't want to."
There was something wrong, something that my statement had brought up. Something deep. My wings let go, because I sensed she needed space. Besides, I was swinging... back towards the me that was uncomfortable. I hated these moodswings, they weren't helping.
And that was one of the reasons I wanted to get away. To get away from myself.
"I need to.... get away for a while," I admitted. "I.... I want you to come with me. That way we can learn to live together... but.... I understand."
And I suddenly did.
"The last time you ran away with someone, it wasn't a happy situation..."
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Post by Namine Joy LeBeau on Nov 12, 2012 3:08:48 GMT -5
My head shakes and words come rushing out before I can stop them, "No, Neku, he was perfect, an angel. Something happened and a demon crept into his heart. He became evil... And... Its all my fault."
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Post by Neku Sakuraba on Nov 12, 2012 3:12:24 GMT -5
My eyes hardened but I shoved the rage aside, mastered it.
"No, Nami!" I told her, taking her by the shoulders again. "You can't ever believe that it was your fault. People change. And it's never the fault of those around them. He took you and he ripped you to shreds, and that's on him, not you. You're the victim, not him, don't you understand?" I couldn't let my grip tighten; the grip was too strong, I didn't know my own strength anymore. I could hurt her. I wouldn't hurt her. "Angel was a monster. And it wasn't because of you."
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Post by Namine Joy LeBeau on Nov 12, 2012 3:31:32 GMT -5
I glare at him, anger, both of ours, flaring. My teeth grit... But just as sudden as it jumps up I feel something steal it away...
Look.
I can't promise that you'll ever remember this.
But, since you're sorta here I guess its okay to say.
Don't brake things that are something. When you do that you've let the demons win... Not the physical ones, but the ones that live in your heart...
That's why I can't love you anymore...
"........" I frown and then shove away, turning my burning and teary gaze to the floor. "You're wrong... He was an Angel."
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Post by Neku Sakuraba on Nov 12, 2012 3:43:09 GMT -5
My gaze softened, and I shook my head.
"It doesn't matter," I said quietly. "That's over... it's past. Right now... this is what's real. I'm what's real. You're what's real. Let's run away tomorrow.... come back when we're ready. We don't even have to be Namine and Neku if you don't want to. We can be.... can be..."
I scrambled for names.
"Netic and Natalie," I finally came up with, smiling. "Check into a hotel, or, someplace else. Maybe one of the safehouses, there's a few that don't discriminate..."
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Post by Namine Joy LeBeau on Nov 12, 2012 3:48:32 GMT -5
I smile and nod slowly, "That sounds... Great..." And it does. Even if... This feels odd... "Neku... Do me a favor?"
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Post by Neku Sakuraba on Nov 12, 2012 3:49:52 GMT -5
"What?" I asked, cocking my head to the side. "What do you need?"
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Post by Namine Joy LeBeau on Nov 12, 2012 3:54:26 GMT -5
"Well, um... While we're still Neku and Namine..." I pull him closer, pressing against him and biting my lip a moment. "I want you to make me forget... Make me forget everything" And I lean in, pressing my lips to his.
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Post by Neku Sakuraba on Nov 12, 2012 3:58:57 GMT -5
We kissed. And it was amazing, just like the way it had been before everything had changed.
Maybe, maybe if this was the same, maybe I wasn't so different than I had been after all...
My lips were otherwise occupied, otherwise, they'd have smiled, but I somehow knew that she knew how I felt about it. I loved her more than anything in the world.
As I helped her forget, she helped me forget, forget that I had ever been any other way, forget Izaya's power games, forget all the problems I had.
We should do this more often... I remarked.
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Post by Namine Joy LeBeau on Nov 12, 2012 4:15:27 GMT -5
I kiss back, filled with passion and need... Make me forget, please?
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Post by Neku Sakuraba on Nov 12, 2012 4:17:26 GMT -5
She's trying to get me to....
Nami....
I gently push away, green eyes looking into blue ones, filled with need, passion, hurt.... but.... it's not right.
"This isn't right," I say, quietly.
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