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Post by Shizuo Heiwajima on Nov 10, 2011 18:37:19 GMT -5
Shizuo's heart suddenly sank "No! I didn't mean it like that at all... It's just, I ugh..." he put a hand on he shoulder "It's just... I could have been anyone, a thief... Worse even..." he shuddered at the thought of how cruel mankind could be "I, well.. You see.." God he was having a hard time phrasing this "I'm none of those things, but... You know..." he stuttered "I sort of, I guess I sort of want to make sure you don't end up hurt or anything, and this is despite knowing you only a few hours!" he was babbling "Shut up!" he told himself "Shut up, shut up, shut up!"
"Because, well you're a nice person! You're a kind, warm, beautiful woman and people would take..." He froze for a moment, re-tracing what he'd said "Advantage... Of that..." he finished his earlier sentence "So! How about them cocoas?" he asked sheepishly swiftly trying to change the subject.
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Post by Aqua on Nov 10, 2011 18:47:38 GMT -5
A whistle from the kettle can be heard as Aqua freezes up, her mind suddenly playing painful memories. Ones that opened up from the protectiveness and words Shizuo had said: -people would take... Advantage... Of that... Her heart thuds painfully and she pulls away,standing.
"Right the drinks," His voice quivers as she exists the room and goes to blindly pour hot water and mix in the chocolate powder. "They'll be... Done soon..." Her voice comes from the kitchen as she moves around it, tears in her eyes.
I tried so hard to close that box... Why won't it stay shut?!
-could have been anyone, a thief... Worse even-
He's right... He could of been a... a... a murder. With that thought she lets her tears run down her face as she grabs out a spoon to mix the drinks.
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Post by Shizuo Heiwajima on Nov 10, 2011 18:54:45 GMT -5
If there was one thing other than flying into a rage that Shizuo hated about his halfer blood, it was the heightened senses that he recieved from it. Admittedly they weren't much better than a humans but they were just good enough for him to hear Aqua crying silently in the kitchen. Within a few seconds he was stood in the doorway, having to lean over slightly to fit in without banging his head. She was definately crying... And now he felt guilty...
"Hey!" he called keeping his distance, still not sure if he was the cause of this "Hey, what's the matter, I didn't mean to upset you or anything..." he took a tentative step towards her, moving cautiously "I just want you to be careful y'know... But if I've upset you, I can show myself out, I know the way home"
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Post by Aqua on Nov 10, 2011 19:11:02 GMT -5
Aqua whips around and drops her spoon, thankfully the mugs stay in place, her blue eyes widened, "No, no!" She hastily wipes away tears. "Its not you... You're not the demon with yellow... Not the one who... I'm just... You're right, alright?" She lets out a shaky breath as she holds back another bout of tears.
"I want you to stay... Just give me a minute to collect myself... Please?"
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Post by Shizuo Heiwajima on Nov 10, 2011 19:17:12 GMT -5
He nodded at her sheepishly, she mentioned a demon plus she was crying so naturally his instincts to pummel the demons face through as many objects as possible was there, but he refused to push her any further "I'll go and keep the blanket warm then..." he says with a small smile and turns, heading back to where they had been seated and pulled the blanket back over himself and simply looked up at the ceiling, his covered hands clenching into fists at the general thought of demons. "No..." he told himself "If she wanted you to know more, she'd have said."
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Post by Aqua on Nov 10, 2011 19:24:54 GMT -5
Releaved he didn't ask for details like she was sure some people would of, Aqua turns around and grips the counter top, "Calm down... Calm down... You've moved on... Moved on... Dia is gone..." She then lets out a shaky sigh while grabbing her lost spoon. She washes it off before using it to finish her mixing job. Soon she follows Shizuo out to there spot on the couch, holding out a mug for him.
"Careful its hot."
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Post by Shizuo Heiwajima on Nov 10, 2011 19:29:00 GMT -5
Shizuo chuckles as he takes the mug confidently "I'm somewhat immune to pain, what between being a halfer and suffering it as part of my job, you sort of just zone it out" he sort of twisted his body so that the blanket pulled back and have Aqua room to sit back down. Taking a drink from the cocoa he let out a satisfied sigh before placing it down on the floor near his feet. He looked across at Aqua and frowned slightly "Are you okay..?" he asked her with a hint of concern "I've not made you angry or anything have I?"
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Post by Aqua on Nov 10, 2011 19:31:22 GMT -5
Aqua had sat and was about to ask him how his cocoa was when he dropped THAT line. She frown and gives her drink a long blow before sighing, "Alright... You told me about your past... May I tell you mine?"
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Post by Shizuo Heiwajima on Nov 10, 2011 19:37:45 GMT -5
He looked her in the eye, searching for any sign of reluctance. He didn't want to force her into doing anything she didn't want to do, especially if she was tender on the subject of her past. Yet despite all of that, he was interested and he couldn't control himself as he felt himself blurt out "Yeah, yeah you can..." he paused for a moment before swiftly adding on the end "B-but only if you want to! Don't let me push you into telling me what you don't want to say!"
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Post by Aqua on Nov 10, 2011 19:50:02 GMT -5
"Its obvious I need to tell somebody if it still makes me this upset after fifteen years..." She sighs and then looks down into her cup. ''lets see..."
"Fifteen years ago, no... it started longer than that, um... um... Well, when I was five I met these two boys. One was obviously a demon, red eyes and silver haired, but I instantly fell in love. The other... A dirty blond at the time. Shortly we all became friends... Over the years Dia, the demon, and I grew very fond of each other, we used to meet in secret behind our friend's back. We fell in love and about a year after we started going steady... I got pregnant... So this would be about the time I'm eighteen..." She takes a breath and thinks a moment, sipping on her hot drink. "Our other friend, the blond, confessed his love to me shortly after I found out so I ran... When I came back... I found Dia dying by his hand...
"But I couldn't bring myself to be mad at him... he was like a brother to me... And I did love him enough that all I could do was pity him. Even if at the time all I did was yell... The father of my children died that rainy night," She stops again, but this time to steady her breathing as she pushes forward. ''From there he told me the cruelest of things... That it was my fault, for loving Dia, for making him love me... And I knew he was right... So I gave him a chance to leave... He took it and, after crying as my dead love faded back into the hell he hence came from, I left as well."
Aqua takes another drink of her cocoa, slowly and calming herself, "I came here, to this city... Was shunned, gave birth, worked hard, and after some hard ten years I finally managed to get a business of my own going and... Well... My kids have kept me strong... Both of them hold the same strength their father once had..." She trails off now as she looks to Shizuo.
"...maybe I shouldn't of dumped this on you."
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Post by Shizuo Heiwajima on Nov 10, 2011 20:02:55 GMT -5
Shizuo listened patiently as she explained everything, reaching down he picked up his mug and took a drink whilst he pondered why he didn't feel right but then he realized what it was. He felt guilty, for the past 19 years he had spent his time convincing himself all demons were evil, and deserved whatever facets brought them. For the past 19 years he had used that very excuse to justify the crime he had committed agains his own father. He found himself placing the mug on the floor and taking Aqua's hand in his.
"I'm sorry..." he muttered "I'm sorry for your loss, but also for my actions..." his gaze fell to the floor "This whole time I've gone about how much I despise demons, how I hunt them for a living and here you were, so close to one... I... I guess I should have known better than to just assume you'd have the same views as me..."
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Post by Aqua on Nov 10, 2011 20:08:35 GMT -5
Aqua is taken by surprise when her hand is taken but then she sets down her cup as well and just hugs Shizuo, "Its fine... I understand... There is no need for apology." She, of course, hugs him tightly as her head rests against his chest.
"I don't care... Well, I do... its just... Though Dia was special... You are too," And she means it too, you can hear in in her voice as she buries her face into his torso, not out of embarrassment, but out of comfort. "And I'm sorry for making you believe you hurt me in anyway." You make me feel again, after all.
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Post by Shizuo Heiwajima on Nov 10, 2011 20:20:39 GMT -5
Shizuo didn't feel awkward in the embrace which was odd for him, especially considering how odd and awkward everything had been so far since he had arrived. Holding one arm around he shoulders he ran his free hand through her hair, looking down at her whilst she nuzzled into his torso he found himself feeling... Complete. For the first time in a long while he felt at peace, he didn't think even Izaya could anger him right now. Whilst it wasn't a theory he was willing to put to the test...
"It's okay..." he whispered down towards Aqua "I know that I've not hurt you now... That's all that matters" he repositioned himself and slid downwards, allowing Aqua to more rest against his shoulder rather than into his torso. He rested the side of his face against her blue hair and he could already feel himself dozing. It had been a long day, but he didn't want to fall asleep... Not just yet at least...
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Post by Aqua on Nov 11, 2011 6:31:08 GMT -5
Aqua finds herself in such an embrace she hasn't had in a long time, well, not on the receiving end at least. Perfect was a word she would put on this feeling she felt, but she also felt guilty...
-all you're fault you know... You act like you're innocent from it all... We both know you aren't, you're a flirt at best and a slut at worst. We both know this... His words ring in her head and she knows she's doing it again, getting too close to someone... and what if that yellow eyed demon found her again? She doesn't want anyone hurt. ...That's right you wanted us both to yourself... Wanted to keep the perfect lover and the perfect back up all to your lonesome... Never once did you consider what that would do to the pawns did you? You're sadistic at nicest and more demonic than you're supposed lover at cruelest... Dia should hate you! Hate you, you selfish-
"...Shizuo...? Thanks... For being here," She swallows her guilt as she thanks the blond man. Her heart clenching as she refuses to ruin their moment with something so far in the past it can't be true. "You've really made... My night..." Her arms around him hold on tighter as her words come out soft and sweet, although he brings up painful things with his kindness... Its a pain she can handle if she gets to be next to his warm flame of hope. Even if her world feels just right in his arms as it crumbles in her mind, at least she knows she has someone to gasp onto and... And...
"...Thank you for letting me be selfish."
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Post by Shizuo Heiwajima on Nov 11, 2011 18:16:14 GMT -5
Shizuo simply smiled at the comment, tightening his own grip in return. He could tell from the sound of her voice that she'd been thinking about something before she said it. "Thanks... For being here,You've really made... My night... Thank you for letting me be selfish" he didn't worry about what she had been thinking about and instead just enjoyed the moment, how odd it was for him so have such a good time around all that usually happened with him but then why would be be surprised? In a way they were both kindred spirits, they had both suffered loss in a similar manner. It was only right to find comfort in one another.
"It's okay..." he muttered in reply "If anything, you've deserved the right to be even just a little bit selfish today" he closed his eyes as he finally let sleep take it's hold on him "And you're welcome by the way, I'm just glad that I had the..." he stifled a yawn "I had the chance to be here for you..." with that, sleep took him in it's embrace and his breathing slowed to a crawl as he slipped into unconsciousness.
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