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Post by Namine Joy LeBeau on Nov 17, 2011 20:17:27 GMT -5
"Oh... Oh, Neku," An over whelming emotion came over me and I was hugging him close. "Its okay... It happened in the past... And... I'm so sorry... I had no... Oh, Neku." If he were to brake down I would hold him up, not because I felt it was my job, but because I wanted to. I wanted to be a shoulder he could lean on, someone he could cry in front of if he needed to.
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Post by Neku Sakuraba on Nov 17, 2011 20:24:10 GMT -5
"I want to be a shoulder you can lean on, someone you could cry in front of..."
I heard Nami's words as barely a whisper, and she gave me a hug just like that time in my house, except this time, it was me in the nightmare. I gripped her, held her.
How had this temperamental, frail, silly chick become such a... a bastion of strength? Don't ask me. Nami's... just like that. She's glue. She holds things together.
Sometimes, she holds people together.
People like me.
I found myself unwittingly taking her up on that offer as tears slipped down my face. I couldn't believe it. No one saw me cry.
But I'd been holding it in for far, far too long. It was coming out now, and I wasn't going to be able to stop it.
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Post by Namine Joy LeBeau on Nov 18, 2011 3:11:28 GMT -5
Neku's arms come around me, but this time their holding me like a life support. Something else reaches my senses, he's crying. Oh, poor Neku. And I do the first sensible thing that comes to mind, I run my fingers soothingly through his hair and whisper softly, "Its okay." I don't know if I said it once or many times, I just felt... Pained from this whole experience, I just wish there was something more I could do.
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Post by Neku Sakuraba on Nov 18, 2011 8:00:54 GMT -5
She was there. Just like a... a rock. Not a leaf, easily blown and tossed by the wind, but a tree, weathering anything that was thrown at her. She put her hands through my hair and I felt... warm. I was so used to protecting everyone; it was so difficult for me to let her protect me. But that's exactly what she was doing.
This was what was real. Right here, right now.
Slowly, I felt my crazy heart slow down, beginning to beat rhythmically again; the shaking, the tremors, slowed, then stopped, and then it was just... us. I still clung to her desperately, was still crying, but things... things were better.
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Post by Namine Joy LeBeau on Nov 18, 2011 9:33:07 GMT -5
As Neku calms down, I can feel a soft breath escape me, but I don't let go. He's still crying and I'm not sure if he's okay or if just doesn't have the energy to freak out anymore. My worry for him stays in place as I calmly wait for him to be ready to talk again.
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Post by Neku Sakuraba on Nov 18, 2011 9:45:31 GMT -5
Slowly, I relaxed my grip, letting go of my desperate hold on her.
"S-sorry," I mumbled. "I didn't mean to... to do that... to lose it..." I tried desperately to put my usual attitude back on, cool, confident, collected, but it just didn't feel natural right now. Still, I couldn't make her worry more about me than she already did.
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Post by Namine Joy LeBeau on Nov 18, 2011 13:27:56 GMT -5
I just smile to him and say, ''Neku... I'm just glad to help."
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Post by Neku Sakuraba on Nov 18, 2011 13:35:14 GMT -5
I smiled. "I knew there was a reason I keep you around," I said, joking, and that felt right. "...Maybe we should go sit down somewhere," I added, thinking. "There... there's still some things I wanted to ask about, and I kinda... interrupted all that..."
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Post by Namine Joy LeBeau on Nov 18, 2011 13:38:22 GMT -5
Nodding I slowly let go of him and give a bright smile, ''Follow me." Turning I walk the remaining ten paces to my door, open it, and allow him into my room... My currently pale blue room. "Hope its not a bother... Chair or bed?"
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Post by Neku Sakuraba on Nov 18, 2011 13:43:09 GMT -5
"Ch-chair," I stumbled. I'm not so good at one-on-one to be honest; I'm much better when I'm talking to a group. Then I can at least pretend I'm a good leader and know what the hell I'm doing, and people seem to believe me. I'm not so good at lying to someone's face.
I sat down on the offered chair.
"Nami," I said, "I... I need to know what happened. Why you, of all people, could get past that cliff in my memory. And... I need to know if we both saw the same thing..."
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Post by Namine Joy LeBeau on Nov 18, 2011 14:45:14 GMT -5
I sit on my bed and take to think, "Well... Its part of my power... I take away pain and suffering... And at times I can tap into painful memories of a person." Shrugging I then say. "So... what did you see?"
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Post by Neku Sakuraba on Nov 18, 2011 14:49:35 GMT -5
I thought back, and shiered again.
"I saw... blood, and pain. My... I think my mother was there, and she was crying. And there was so much pain, so much blood and suffering... and then..."
I put my face on one hand.
"....god, Nami, I think... I think I was shot. And there was a figure... a figure that I couldn't see who scared me to death..."
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Post by Namine Joy LeBeau on Nov 18, 2011 16:39:15 GMT -5
Standing I walk over and get on my knees in front of him, "Yes... That seems to have happened... In your memory..." What else was there for me to say?:
Sorry that happened... Maybe we can find out who did it and get revenge if need? That wouldn't solve anything
Tell him its okay? I know damn well its not! If this were to have happened to me, I would of wished it had stayed locked away forever!
So all I can do is... Offer a comforting smile, "Its in the past... You've survived since then..." I can't do nor say much more with out doing something that could do more harm than help...!
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Post by Neku Sakuraba on Nov 18, 2011 19:53:08 GMT -5
I nodded.
"Yeah," I said.
"If that were to have happened to me, I'd have wished it had stayed locked away forever!" she'd said.
I shook my head.
"I... I'm actually... it hurts, but... I'm actually a little bit... I dunno, 'relieved' isn't the right word, but... it's like a sense of closure," I said. "No matter how horrible it is or was..." Or how awful he nightmares got... "...it's better than not knowing at all. Than being left with that horrible abyss at the beginning of my memory."
A darkness I couldn't see through.
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Post by Namine Joy LeBeau on Nov 18, 2011 20:47:47 GMT -5
"Um..." I'm slightly confused, wasn't he just upset. But I decide to not let my mind boggle things and instead go with instinct. "If that's the way you feel about it... I just wanna make sure you're gonna be okay." And that's the truth because all I seemed to be worried about that battle, well besides Angel drama and surviving, was making sure Neku got out alive.
"Funny," I whisper to myself before smiling and saying. "Well... At that doesn't happen every time I aid someone... Most of the time they don't even know that I've gained some extra knowledge about them... So I guess this makes you a special case." Then I give a kinda barky laugh. "And I'm glad you don't resent me for tapping into that for ya." Not that I did it on purpose, but that's besides the point. All that matters now is that we're here, we're okay, we sorta understand each other, and we can get through this together.
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